Where do I start ugggg.... my life is a circus! these blogs are not going to be perfect in fact I will probably piss people off by what I write, unlike most people I don't care what others think! I will probably misspell words and have run on sentences, but I don't care!
I am the youngest of 8 kids! Yes 8! Im old enough to rightfully say been there done that. I am old school I believe right is right and wrong is revenge time! All my life I was told I would grow up like my sisters! I didn't find that much of a threat in fact I looked forward to it! (I love all my sisters and 1 brother)
As I sit here writing this I have a million thoughts going thru my head so I will probably jump from subject to subject rapidly and unless you are family or close friends you will more then likely get lost several times lol.
Here are my rules for this blogging 1. I will not use names maybe initials but not names! 2. Anything goes! 3. If you are hurt by it don't continue to read it, cause I will say stuff and not all will be nice!
I have 2 kids 1 boy who is 11 and 1 girl who is 7. I am a single parent. they have ADHD and ODD. yes both of them do! It is a struggle daily with both of them. I am the youngest of 8 kids, I have 6 sisters and 1 brother! lots of nieces and nephews and great nieces and nephews! I am gonna write what ever I am happy, sad, mad, or excited about that day! if you happen to piss me off that day well then you will be wrote about.
I have lived in same complex for 10 in a half years to my great misery! if I could afford to move right now I would! In this complex we have drunks, drug addicts and nosy people! you know them neighbors that like to talk to you to find out the juicy details of other neighbors! Well it is a good thing I DON'T care what others think! I LOVE to argue if I think I am right (and even if I am not hehehe) when people start going they get passionate and it is funny! Sorry I did say I would say all and I am only being honest! I love to rant and rave about whatever! I bitch and moan and that is why family don't come over! when I wanted to set this blog up (I had no idea how) I was told they want all the good drama! well there really is not any drama today! and in my family that is a miracle!
My family finds my parenting skills well...... lacking I guess cause im not on drugs or drink in front of my kids. I was told my family feels I favor my daughter over my son! ummmm.... ok NOT!!! lets start at the beginning a long long time ago..... NOT just kidding! everyone knows how I feel and if you are in my family or you are a friend you know I have done drugs and drank in my past! I am NO angel in fact my wings are barely holding on! as for favoring one child over the other that is not true! I can't control my kids dads. my daughters dad lives in town and sees her about 1 time a month if that! and ALWAYS bring something for both my kids! My sons dad lives out of town! my sons dad does nothing for him or with him nor sees him much so Yes when Father's Day comes around I celebrate it with all the other father's as I have been the only one to raise them. So I was told my daughter gets everything my son gets nothing! lets see my son has gotten: xbox360, PS2, Wii, 2 hand held systems, 4 tablets what I think we are up to 6 bikes now did I mention it is his second PS2 and second xbox 360! I love him unconditionally he gets money when he wants! no child support from his dad! Now to my daughter Yes child support! she has had 3 bikes a few dolls and 2 tablets and unconditional love from me. You see I don't think possessions amount to much! in fact unconditional love is all that should matter! but some family members feel that if you have a lot of stuff for your kids than that is all you need! NOT! I don't and won't favor 1 child over another I don't think it is right but.... if that is what you mean when you say my son gets nothing and that my daughter gets it all well then you are lying to yourself he is clearly way ahead of her in possessions! that was last weeks drama!! see my life is a circus! on any given day I feel like I cant sit still, cant think clearly, cant concentrate.
My House which is always a mess! do any of my family ever wonder why I leave it a mess? lol Not because I am lazy! its because I don't want my family at my house they are straight up dysfunctional everyone of them I get along with a few really well and they come over but other wise my family stays away! Now don't get me wrong I have had 4 back surgeries so when it comes to doing cat box it is not done as often as it should! but other wise, I have stayed in a place longer than any other family member, paid all my bills so my services are not cut off, I have food on table, clothes on my kids back, stayed away from drugs and alcohol and kept my kids in 1 school all there lives! WHY? cause it comes down to this MY KIDS ARE MY WORLD and they don't like change! so I will continue to piss people off in my family by raising my kids alcohol and drug free by raising them to respect adults and not lip off to them to raise them as caring, friendly, spoiled little shit that they are, cause come on my kids may respect other adults but me they like to test!! I have always told them don't hit, or yell at people unless....... they hit you first and they continue to do it with out getting in trouble then yes lay them out! again I was raised respect all! like you want to be respected! if your kid is mean to mine and hits and gets in their face and you don't do anything about it then yes expect your kids to come back and tell you they were hit or yelled at by mine. it is a mind over matter! I don't mind and you don't matter! So...... my house will remain "Dirty" to keep you out!
I am frequently told how to raise my kids and how to do this or that!!!!! REALLY people come on how about you worry about yourself! I am the youngest BUT I am not that young! if I wanted your options I would ask. if I felt I needed your advice then find it as a privilege cause I don't ask many people!
I am not a perfect parent! but I am also not addicted to drugs or alcohol! ( and honestly that is a miracle) I watch my kids play outside! I am the only adult out there watching there kid play with others. Yes, I will watch yours while I am outside with mine, cause God only knows what could happen while you in the house or texting on the phone! God forbid one of your company come flying up and hit a kid! Yep, everyone is yelled at to slow down in my complex! I have even told my manager to slow down! So if you happen to come flying thru my complex and you see a lady sitting there and she yells to you to slow down then slow down! no need to yell back telling me to f off or bite me or what ever you may yell! I don't have time to educate you on driving thru a complex FILLED with kids cause chances are I am outside watching your kids play well your dumb ass is in the house! wow am I filled with piss and vinegar today! it has to be the weather yep I blame the weather! I am in daily pain and when the weather turns my body reacts. I am a very lucky person (meaning I am not addicted to my pills) I think I have guardian angels watching over me. I can take my pills when ever I need to and not when ever I have to! NO I am not writing all this and speaking about any one person. I am just writing as stuff pops in my head! Lost Yet? Found ya!! lol
Yesterday was the anniversary of my moms death and I was really surprised I got thru day with out anyone reminding me of it! like duh people I know when both our parents were born when they both died when they were married, and I know both their social security numbers! most times family hears this from me "I don't remember" hello, ever wonder why? its selective memory I choose to remember only what I want if I don't remember it chances are I didn't care or chose to forget for a reason!! some where out there some one may come across my blog and think wow now this is a cold hearted bitch! ya I am but only cause I have had to be or want to be!
I decided today to send my kids to a week long camp yep my kids are going to camp for a whole week what will I be doing probably the same thing I have been doing for the last 11 years NOTHING lol I don't go out any more I don't hang with friends I just stay home and clean!! that is my big adventure for this week of no kids!!!
